Hi friends! What’s good today?

Here’s what’s good in my Lil world. I’ve got my desk space and my new computer and it feels so good to have a little part of me back.

You see I’ve been living “temporary” for almost 2 months now and it’s been a little different for me. I miss having my space, being surrounded by my stuff. You know, those things that bring me comfort and make me feel at home.

Let me ask you this; have you ever found yourself at a crossroads and not sure which road to take?

What if you had the opportunity for a second chance at something? Would you take it and use the knowledge you gained the first time around knowing what you’re facing? What if you had the chance to do it again, looking at it with fresh eyes and new wisdom?

Or would you take a pass and try something new, unfamiliar, maybe something better, even if the path was unsure and long?

I think this is something we all face in our lives in big and small ways.

You see I’m at that point in my life right now.

I mentioned a job that I had offered to me that I accepted. I went to work on my first day and found out that there had been a “miscommunication” of sorts and that although still good, the pay was not what was advertised or agreed to (it was a small base pay + commission to potentially equal what was agreed to during the interview) and the same miscommunication regarding the work location (the office was over an hour away and it was sold to me as a remote job so I could work from home) with the reality being I was expected to be in the office.

This job was in the same career field that I’ve been in for years, the office environment was very casual and relaxed and everyone seemed nice but I knew when this came to light that I would have to decline the offer.

This is what has put me at my crossroads. I have the potential for other job opportunities in a career that I’ve wanted for a long time but not in a place I particularly want to be. While other things seem to distract me in another direction.

I am not in a position to worry about HAVING to have a job. And I keep saying I wanted to take time off to pursue my passions for a while but the kind of person that I am (driven/workaholic) is torn because time off = no pay and I worry that if I wait too long the chance might pass me by for what could be a good thing.

I know it seems like a big DUH for most people looking at it but put yourself in my shoes. Do you go with the stable, good thing?

Or do you (patiently…HA HA) wait and keep working at your passion and meanwhile try to find something else stable not knowing if any of it will work out how you hope and continue to live temporarily in hopes that it will happen?

My brain and my heart are at war. So, until I figure it out, I’m hanging out on middle ground.

Hopefully next week I’ll have an update, and if not, I’ll just add to the confusion!

Take care, friends. Be kind to your crazy people…I am one of them…LOL!