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Time Keeps On Slipping……

Hi friends!

I’m sorry that once again it’s been a while since I was able to post. I’ve been fighting being too busy, rushing through life and doing what I think HAS to be done and negating what fulfills me, like writing on here, working out, cooking healthy meals.

We all know how easy that is to do. But before I knew it a lot of time had once again passed me by.

I’m trying so hard to break the habits I had before I moved here since one of the reasons I moved here was to have a fuller life.

I promised myself to continue to step out of my comfort zone and LIVE yet I easily fell into my old routine of work, work, more work and studying.

I think it’s important to work hard and continue to improve yourself but in that process I was forgetting to actually live.

I noticed more and more that I was jealous of a friend who had lost their job. That sounds crazy I know but it was a wake-up call to me that I’m going in the wrong direction.

I had briefly lost my drive, my passion, and focus. But I’m clearing out the clutter and getting back on track.

I was reminded of my dad who worked so hard all of his life. He provided a wonderful life for our family but ended up very ill before he could truly enjoy his retirement.

I know that my mom and us kids would be happy to have less stuff and more time with him. Money isn’t as important as we make it out to be. More money can always be made but you can’t make more time.

My only advice is to remember what’s important because it can all be gone before you know it.

Regrets are hard to live with.

Remember to always be kind because you never know what even the brightest smile is hiding.

Take care friends…I’ll be back soon!

 

 

The Truth Behind You

Hi Friends! I hope you have all been able to enjoy a nice weekend.

I’ve been blessed to be able to enjoy a long weekend here which has given me a lot of time to think about things. And for someone like me, that’s not always a good thing. But this time it was.

It allowed me a little extra time to focus on Nordys Garage since for the last few months all of my time has been spent working and studying and little else.

With the passing of the Queen of Soul (RIP Aretha), it made me think more about my friend that recently passed.

Have you ever been to a memorial service for someone? They are being eulogized and all of these wonderful things are being said about them and it brings a smile to everyone’s face?

So many of the beautiful things they have done and who they were are being reminisced.

But you’re sitting there thinking about the person YOU knew. And although the things being mentioned at their memorial service might be true, most of them are being stretched…maybe more than a little.

My challenge to you and to myself is to live your life right now according to how you want to be remembered so you can honestly be the person that is being eulogized and not have someone sitting there on that day thinking, mmm hmm…I knew the REAL them.

Live a life so that when someone speaks ill of you, others won’t even entertain the idea of what they are saying.

But even more importantly, be the christian that God wants you to be. Because no matter how man sees us act on this earth, our Heavenly Father knows the truth.

He is the one who sees our heart and all the actions we try to hide.

He knows what we do behind closed doors when no one else is watching.

He knows the thoughts we have, the lies we tell, how we mislead others to get our way or get ahead, the videos we watch and the music we listen to.

And you have to know that living a life of honor isn’t just about some eternal reward we will get someday in the future or the legacy you will one day leave.

Being a good man or a good woman now will allow you to have a better life while you’re here. No, it won’t keep every bad thing from happening to you but it will keep a lot of it at bay.

You can’t erase the past but you can learn from it so start today by making amends, forgiving, taking care of your mind and body and start living your best life.

And always, always remember to be kind. It really all does start with you.

Change All Around

I wonder what it’s going to feel like to not see snow again.

Snowflakes have been a part of me for most of my life. They are even tattooed on my body.

I’m still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I am no longer where I was.

I know I have struggled since moving here. Not with getting a job or finding a place to live because all of that basically fell into my lap. God easily provided.

I’ve struggled with fighting my own wants over finding my true purpose for being here. I find myself looking for the easy way.

I haven’t yet adjusted to my life here which is a weird thing for me. I generally look for new places and adventures. But there’s something different about it this time.

One thing I need to remember is the God never fails. He made sure I made it here.

I also need to remember to be thankful for that even when things aren’t going my way or how I think they should be going.

I’ve got to stop only praising Him when things are good and I’m getting what I want. That’s acting like a very spoiled child.

No, if I’m going to trust him like I say I do I need to praise him when things are confusing or hard and know that He is strengthening me.

I am here for change and opportunity. I’ve had to remind myself more than once that I am capable. I moved 1700 miles away, alone, with no job, no home and a very unsure future.

So, I need to keep this in mind when I’m afraid and tell myself, “not everything that is faced can be changed but nothing can be changed until it’s faced. “James Baldwin.

Change is uncomfortable and can be downright scary. But sometimes it’s necessary.

Keep up the good fight friends. Kindness….spread it!

So Here I am

Good evening! What’s good friends? I figured I’d share a few of my thoughts and observations with you tonight.

I’ve noticed in the early mornings when I take Nordy for a walk around the grounds the smell from the blooms on the trees is something short of fine perfume.

It’s peaceful.

The birds are just waking and starting to sing. The sun is just warming the earth and the dew is still settled on the grass.

In the evenings I can sit on my balcony and look at the sunset over the hill country and the colors and shadows rival those of famous paintings.

I live in a beautiful place.

I’ve heard several people here say they feel like they are living in a resort. It does kind of feel that way. It’s lovely to be honest.

My apartment is charming, new and modern yet with a cottage comfort and honestly, it’s more than I could hope for. The weather, although a bit hot right now, is divine, especially in the mornings.

I can wear sundresses every day. Flip flops are a way of life! The pools are busy every day. Rarely is there a day that the sun doesn’t shine. To the outside observer you would think I live in paradise. And yet something is missing.

Earlier this week I was putting stuff away, finishing going through boxes, and it sparked nostalgia. Along with the new things, places and life I’m experiencing it caused a little heart pang.

It’s really difficult when you want to share something with someone and they are no longer there. You experience or see something and your immediate reaction is to call or text them and suddenly realize you can’t.

I may never understand why people make the decision they do. Whether to leave the earth or leave your life. I just know that I have to deal with those decisions the best I can.

It’s hard to find out that sometimes you truly never know a person or what’s going on in their mind.

It’s wore on me. It’s changed me.

I was living a life I didn’t recognize and saw no way out. It got to the point that I was so restless in my soul that I thought I would physically burst. I have no other way to explain it. I was full up of what was not me.

In talking to others and finding out for myself there’s one thing that is certain, you can’t outwork, outrun, outsmart, outdrink, grief and heartache.

Then one day I woke up and all the dreams I had were gone. I saw no future in the life I had. I was beyond empty. I wasn’t suicidal. I was hollow.

So, I took charge of my life and took a chance. I sold what would sell and gathered any money I could and packed my life into boxes and walked away from everything I knew.

So many people that I have talked to can’t believe what I did. Some call me brave. Some have dubbed me strong. But I know what the truth is. I had had enough. I know what it is to feel desperate. I had a good job, loving friends, a comfortable home and I walked away from all of it.

My soul was longing for something else. Peace.

I prayed so long …over a year for an answer. And I finally had to just take my chance to make it better for me.

It’s been such a short time since I’ve done that but I have few regrets.  I’m not saying it’s easy. Not even close. After my divorce, this was probably the hardest and scariest thing I’ve done.

Now I’m back in self-improvement and in study mode. Like tonight, sitting with the French doors open hoping to catch a small breeze on a rare non-blistering Texas evening, fan blowing to assist and cut down on the AC bill, radio playing, and books…ok, well, laptop…open.

The reason I gave my old life up was to gain the one I really wanted. To follow my dreams. To make them a reality. And it’s going to take more work, more sacrifice. I am living proof that it’s never too late. Don’t stop trying. Keep reaching for your stars. Like the saying goes, “You are never too old to set another goal and dream a new dream”. I know that’s easy for me to say. I’ve always been a bit of a dreamer and always will be. But what kind of world would it be without my type?…..

The Chances We Don’t Take

Good morning, friends!

I apologize for so much time between posts but I’m doing my best to deal with the things life has tossed at me. I can tell you that the grieving process is rather unpredictable.

If you’re a reader or know me personally you know my routine…. sitting in the hammock chair on the balcony is how most of my thoughts begin.

So, I made a simple post on Instagram. I shared a meme. It was something that struck a chord in me so I thought I’d share. It was a simple meme. I’m not even responsible for penning it.  But I shared it. And the response has been incredible. It lead to what I will write.

I want to be brave and say a million things. Tattletale everything in my heart and on my mind. But I’m afraid of the consequence. But then people started to message me….

I can’t tell you how many people I know and certainly don’t know, that suffer from life. Yeah. From life. We live strong, love fully and get broken, hard.

And we settle.

For what’s left.

And we breathe to survive.

And we eat. Not tasting.

And we work. To pay bills.

And we go from day to day not remembering anything or making any memories.

And time passes.

Wasted.

And we look back. At what was.

And we wish for more.

And dream forward.

At what could have been,

If only…

And we sit.

And time ticks.

And we.stop.living…..

And yet wake each day just to do it again.

That was my life. My existence. The crumbs I accepted.

Friends, why do we do that? Why do we think that if we just make it through today, to next week, to the weekend, the new job, the new whatever! that things will be better?

I’m telling you, they won’t! We have to take charge of our own lives and make the changes within ourselves to create the lives we want.

I did it. And I’m just realizing what taking a chance will do.

My story is ever evolving and I have so much more to tell.

But for now, please friends, don’t give up your dreams. Don’t believe that what is is all that will ever be. Things can and will get better if you take the chance to make the changes.

Continue to be kind, continue to dream. Don’t give up on yourself or the life you are meant to live!

I will try to be back soon…..I’m still working on me.

Marching On

Hello friends! I mentioned an update in my last post so I need to get to it!

I’m sorry to have neglected you for so long but a lot has happened and I have needed time to absorb and deal with it all.

I am often talking about living your life and following your path and I finally did just that!

I knew it was time to make a change and I prayed a lot about it and as doors were closing where I was, I trusted God and followed the doors He opened.

Since being here things have gone fairly smoothly. And when they haven’t, I haven’t gotten worked up about it. I’ve dealt with it and learned.

As I said in a previous FB video, unfortunately, along the way I lost two people that meant more to me than I can express. I’m angry, sad, hurt and about a thousand other emotions I can’t put into words. One I lost to…I don’t even know how to say it other than extenuating circumstances. The other to what they are saying is suicide. I can’t believe either one happened. I always thought they would be part of my life always. People who I would continue to share my life with forever. But I guess they had other plans. When someone leaves your life, especially suddenly and unexpectedly as both of these did, it leaves an emptiness that you can’t explain and most likely will never fill. So here I am, just after midnight into July 4th. What an appropriate day to do my best to break free and find independence from it all.

I will probably never know the whole story with either person. But one thing has been solidified to me…always, always tell people how you feel. I know we all hear it all the time, and I know I say it all the time, but we hear it all the time because it’s true!

I go to the FB page of my friend who died just to see his face and relive memories. I re-read our texts, and messages and look at pictures and linger on the last things we said to one another. I always told him how I felt so I don’t have that regret but a month later I see people still writing on his page saying “I don’t think I ever told you”. I don’t ever want to be one of those people.

There are times that it has drained me. I’ve emptied myself more than once without being refilled. It’s left me exhausted physically and emotionally but I have an innate drive to make the world better. To uplift people. It doesn’t make me better or worse than anyone. It’s just my purpose in life. It always has been and I’ve always known it. It just manifests itself in different ways.

So as I start this new chapter in my life I’m excited to share it all with you. I’m trying to come to grips with everything that has happened and embrace what is to come. I hope you all stick around and come along for the ride because I’m on a new road!

I’m too tired for the details as to how I got to where I am but I promise to fill in the blanks soon.

Just remember this, friends….You only get one shot at life so make it count. Make it last. Make it worth every heartbreak, every smile, every tear, every memory.
This is your life, your destiny, your fate…this is your only chance.

 

Change

What’s good friends!!??

I apologize for neglecting you but I have quite the update coming soon!! Until then I want to share a small, heartfelt poem I penned a little while back.

You know it’s coming….Be kind, friends! Let’s make the world better, together!

 

Change

Sun turns to rain

Smiles to tears

I haven’t felt you

In what feels like years

 

Laughter to lies

Memories burned

Unsure of the next step

Or where it all turned

 

There will be no answers

Questions remain

Best to let go now

Try to lessen the pain

 

Move forward, onward

Stumble, don’t fall

I gave it my best

I gave it my all

 

So much unsaid

Never to be heard

Bury it deep

Lessons unlearned

 

Time never stops

It keeps moving on

Wishing to right

Those things gone wrong

Time Goes On

Happy Mother’s Day Friends! I hope you’ve all had a blessed week!

I know that today is an off day for Nordy’s Garage but I wanted to put out a special Mother’s Day message.

I know that today is a day to celebrate mothers and I personally think it’s a wonderful holiday.

But as joyful as the flowers and ice cream cakes are, today can also be a very difficult time for many.

I remember many years back when all I wanted was children and it seemed to be the one thing I couldn’t have. Every year on this day my heart broke for the longing I had to have a child in my arms.

If you’ve read my bio you know I did eventually go on to have children but for those years in waiting it was a painful emptiness every year especially on this day. And now that my kids are grown and moved away, a new emptiness has come in to play. But now it’s different. Now it’s a missing them that is also filled with pride and joy.

But I know many other people are suffering this day as well. Some for the same reason I once did but many for the emptiness that won’t quit.

For my best friend who lost her oldest son earlier this year. And another friend who recently lost his mother. My heart is with you. When people are missing from our lives, those are holes in us that won’t ever be completely repaired.

This post won’t be long because I know we’re all busy but my message is clear. Appreciate those you have today because tomorrow isn’t promised. You can lose people in the blink of an eye whether through misunderstandings, death, or whatever the case may be.

Don’t live with regret. Let people know they matter to you and that you love them because the memories can haunt you for a lifetime.

Be kind friends. Time is short.

What I Learned

Hello Friends!! Have you found something good today? How about that you’re alive? That’s always a good place to start.

Sometimes you don’t know how exhausted you are until you stop moving and it hits you like the train that’s been trying to run you over for weeks. With all of my early to rise days, last night was finally my early to bed night. And with that being said, let’s get on with today’s tune-up.

I give advice (or often just ramble…LOL) generally based off of my (or someone close to me) life experiences or the wisdom of others that I have seen put into action.

Recently, simply by listening to a conversation, I received a brilliant piece of advice. I overheard a friend say “If someone comes into your mind, or you can’t get someone off your mind, pray for them. Literally stop what you’re doing and pray for them.”

That sounded like wonderful advice! So I recently started to put this into practice and what a difference it’s made!

Sometimes praying is easy. You can pray about people you love, your family, to have a good day, all kinds of things.

But what about praying for people that haven’t treated you well? That boss that that only talks to you to tell you what you’ve done wrong, that friend that only comes around when they want something from you, your child that makes you question why you ever had children, that significant other that broke your heart?

We tend to shirk away from pain and things that cause us discomfort but prayer isn’t just for the good things. God can turn any test into a testimony. And when we pray for difficult people or situations it’s not to change THEM. It’s to change US.

I’m not trying to tell you that if you put this into practice that your life will suddenly turn around and you’ll have no problems but with practice, it will change your perspective on things.

Maybe the next time your boss comes to you with an issue, you can use it to improve your work instead of being resentful. Maybe your friend comes to you because they have no one else and they trust you. Maybe your stubborn child (although difficult now) will grow up to make a real difference in other peoples lives (in a good way!) and maybe the person who broke your heart can teach you to forgive.

Kind of going back to a previous tune-up…it’s about your response to things after the reaction.  If someone comes to your mind there’s a reason for it and you need to deal with it. And if the reason someone is on your mind is for a good thing then make sure to count that among your blessings. Either way, you get a more positive result.

We only can control ourselves and when we practice controlling our thoughts and responses we can change ourselves for the better.

Start today by being kind to each other, and yourself. Make changes to make yourself better. Seems simple enough, right?

Until next time, friends!

 

Short And Sweet

Hello friends!

Today’s post is a bit later but I’ve been working on it for a while and each time I read it, it feels scattered and like the thoughts are just rattling around randomly in my head. If you recall a few weeks ago I was very out of sorts and couldn’t seem to figure it out. It’s like God was constantly tapping on my shoulder telling me to pay close attention and I was distracted. The cloud lifted a few weeks ago and things were made clear but I have to admit that the cloud is back.

So today I decided to try and clear my head a little and I headed to the park for my first run since my injury last year! I’m far from 100% healed yet but it felt really amazing to get out there and stumble around for a while.

I can’t say that it made a difference to the fogginess in my head so I’m not going to leave much here today as I’m going to continue working on my next tune-up that I started earlier in the week and hope that the thoughts in my head can come together to make sense to you all.

I’m working hard on not only retraining and strengthening my body to work properly again after my injury but I’m also working hard (maybe even harder) on my heart and mind after what they’ve been through as well. Maybe none of it is completely repairable. Maybe these have been life-changing events for me. But no matter the path I will search hard to find the silver lining and a way to glorify the Father.

Kindness friends…it goes a long way.

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